Hello (:

Hi, my name is Katherine and I have an eating disorder.

Ok my real name isn’t actually Katherine, but for the sake of keeping my dirty little secret this is the name I’ll be using. Through this blog I hope to share my experience with others who share my disorder and to find comfort in knowing no one is alone.

One of the most important things to share in our community is stats, so I’ll start off with those, however embarassing they are:

Height: 5′5″
HW: 190 (June 09)
LW: 115 (Aug. 06)
CW: 187 (July 09)
GW1: 150 by August 09
GW2: 130 by Christmas 09
UGW: ? definitely back to 115 then lower and fitter

I was around 170-180 lbs in November 2005 when I started my journey with Ana; I got down to 115 by August 06, just nine months later. It was amazing and I was soaring, but I crashed and burned hard. Now I’m back up to my high weight +10 and am ready to get back to where I was.

By writing about it publicly I hope to be inspired to keep going on days when I feel like failing.

I hope you’ll share with me all that you feel comfortable sharing and that we can become supporters of each other.

DISCLAIMER: I can’t help anyone who doesn’t already have an eating disorder and I can’t help anyone recover; it’s my belief that eating disorders are rooted deep inside a person; something that is inherently wrong with him or her that can only be fixed when he or she finds the inner strength to do it.

You are never alone, but you are the leader of your own battles.

-kat